consistency is a scam

(especially for neurodivergent folks & spoonies)

For years now I have been trying to gain consistency in my life. More consistent energy. Better habits. Trying to “show up” every day for my life.

And I couldn’t understand why there were days that were productive and days that were spent in bed.

Why there were days when I would get completely lost in writing music. Hours spent in the studio in creative flow.

Followed by days where all I could do was lie in a dark room and watch the same TV shows over and over again.

I read books, watched videos and journaled about how to be more consistent. I set up systems and trackers and bought supplements.

Yearning for the day when I could finally show up as a person I had never once in my life been.

And then I found out I was neurodivergent. And everything started to make sense.

As a chaotic space cadet with varying levels of focus, motivation and energy, I will never be consistent.

Because with migraine and ADHD, inconsistency is the default.

It’s why some days I could feel like I had my shit together and other days I hit a brick wall.

It’s why I can smash out days worth of work in a few hours. And why other days I can barely get out of bed.

And now I know that’s okay. I don’t need to show up on social media every day to build my brand.

It’s a lie told to us by social media corporations so they can train their algorithm and keep users on their sites.

I don’t need to push through brain fog, fatigue or pain to grow my business.

That’s a lie created by a capitalist system that wants me to behave like a machine to extract more value from me.

Consistency is a lie and a scam that hurts us all. But one that is particularly punishing for neurodivergent people.

And I for one, now refuse to be consistent.

I am not a brand. I am a person. And this is a space of chaos.